Monday, January 27, 2014

Realization


Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim,

It's been almost two years for me to not be able to write any posts here. I had been seriously struggling a lot especially during last year,2013. It's been a great year for me since I graduated on that year. ;P Besides, Happy New Year!! It's 2014 already! I can't believe it...time does fly by very fast! May we use our time wisely by doing things that will please Allah s.w.t. :)

Ever since I graduated, I had been thinking, contemplating and reflecting a lot of things about myself and my actions towards the others. I needed time to learn about myself. Alhamdulillah, Allah somehow gave me a reason to have THAT PRECIOUS TIME. I think I have been learning a lot since then. I always say and remind others that life is full of choices and it's always us who must make our decisions wisely. Unfortunately, now only I understood the whole meaning of this sentence. It means that this life has always been the fight between the truth and the bad thing inside us and the result of the decision that we make will eventually effect others as well. I guess you must have heard that the little things that we do in our life will make a big difference to other people's life. So, it does matter if you choose to do the right or bad thing. Both results in two distinct effects.

Realizing that matter, I started to reflect myself on the way I lived, especially for the past six years of my life. I wondered whether I had made the right decisions or not and I also wondered about how many people that I had hurt during all those time when I was making immature decisions. I realized that during my past years, my emotions controlled me more so, I knew that my actions will eventually hurt some of the people whom I am close with or some whom I just met and get to know of.

Furthermore, friendship is very important. Family ties are more important. Both are the main source of our confidence level. I realized that during my university years. The type of friends we mingle with, will mold us either to be a better person or not. Alhamdulillah, I am very grateful to Allah for sending me good people to mingle with. It's not that I don't meet or mingle with people who...you know, maybe have a little bit of problem with themselves, lost in finding their identity or etc..but whenever we meet those type of people, don't let ourselves get drown with them. Pull them up...let their stories be a lesson for us to learn. insyaAllah, may Allah protect us and give us strength to improve ourselves and help those who are in need.

I am really glad for all the things that I had experienced for the past six years regardless of the problems I had created before..I think people grow up by making mistakes, realize your mistake, apologize for the mistakes you had done and move on. It's no use to keep thinking about it and torture yourself. There's always a reason for everything that happened in our life.

There were also a lot of events that I had been part of which I am being really very very grateful for because it has changed my mindset about the way I had live. It is one of the most beautiful thing that had occurred in my life.
The problem with me is I am a very egoistic person and I have a very high pride of myself. So, obviously it is a very hard thing for me to change to be a person who is more gentle and kind. But there's a turning point that made a great change in my life. That's the beautiful event I am talking about. Well, this post is way too long. I guess I'll have to update it in the next post, insyaAllah. ;)


Lesson for today,

"The believers are only those who believe in Allah and His Apostle then they doubt not and struggle hard with their wealth and their lives in the way of Allah; they are the truthful ones." [49:15]